we're slimming down

what a friend i found.

2009-04-25T12:26:00.000+08:00

A friendship is useless if one of us doesn't even care.

Motherly figure?

2009-04-11T12:33:00.002+08:00

I didn't know i was being so stressed out by school etc until i saw the pimples that started popping out from my face. i never had so many pimples in my life before.

and it's not a nice sight.

spent the whole day with Lakshmi in Vivo yesterday, bought a couple of things. it's nice to finally be free and just do almost nothing the whole day and just chill and relax (chillax) at Gloria Jeans. it's been a while.

& the streets were more crowded because it was public holiday, so i saw many families around. and that's where i witnessed a few abusive parents. ( i told Ramesh i'm gonna blog about this). Maybe they were disciplining their children. but in public?

1st scenario
A mother grabbing her sons ears wih both her hands. shaking it very violently, and shouting in his face. his glasses were out of place, eyes filled with tears, face dripping with tears, and was flung back and forth by his mother, resulting in extremely red ears. maybe he was naughty, but was that needed? many passer-bys stopped to look. but that did not stop the abusive mother.

2nd scenario
this one was not abusive physically but was abusive verbally. i was in the train on the way home. mother and son. the mother whispered something to her son and he started being very cautious about his surroundings. they were standing and there were no vacant seats. on man stood up to alight. immediately the son ran towards the vacant seat but lost to another man who got to the seat first. guess what the mother said to her son? "...because you stupid! you very slow! stupid!".

let's not be abusive parents when we grow up. we not only make a fool of ourselves in public, we embarrass our children.

cos you had a bad day.

2009-04-07T11:55:00.003+08:00

it's 11.55am. and so far, it's been quite a bad day for me. have this ever happened to you?

you spend at least 2 hours racking your brains and finally, you finish your homework. a sigh of relief, a drink of water, and you watch tv to relax your mind. the day is over, your homework is done. and the next the day is time to hand in your homework. you search for your homework in your computer and cannot find it anywhere. you start to question yourself "shit, did i even save it??" you stay up all night searching for it. slept late but to no avail, still unable to find it. the next day you wake up early. after only 5 hours of sleep, you are still very tired and sleepy.continue the search. so you clicked history, whilst browsing through the history, nyou accidentally clicked "clear history".

yup, that's what happened.

to round it all up, i guess i just have to accept the fact that my friend is selfish and i shan't try to change him/her. i should accept that person for who he/she is. and they are only human.

but so am i.

dumbfounded,
e-van

relaxation, peace & tranquility, where are you?

2009-04-04T00:18:00.004+08:00

I CANNOT STAND THE WEATHER. I WANNA MIGRATE! TO ENGLAND!!

i still cannot find my window frame, and koi fish backdrop!

ARGH.
everyday is such a tiring day for me. i reach home, everyday, all exhausted and just longing to be embraced by my comforter and just sleep with no worries. with air con of course!
i hate being outdoors recently. because of the weather. i can definitely rant this whole post about the hot and humid weather these few days. but i shan't do that because i think you should, already, by now, get my point.

okay so looking forward to weekends of sleep. &&&! the whole production to be over! overnight hiking on Good Friday! yayyy!! weeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

God please let it snow in Singapore,
e-van.

stress-sation.

2009-04-01T23:23:00.002+08:00

I am back to being stressed.

-Is there anyone who knows a place that sells a Cloth Koi Painting 1m wide and 2m long?
-Is there anyone who knows where i can find a 2m by 2m window frame?
-Anyone heard of building recyclers?

ARGH. stressed= dessert spelt backwards.
found that in a weight loss book. haha.

ok i'm switching back to stress mode.

toodles.

stressed,
e-van

i'm told to leeead, not to reeead.

2009-03-30T22:52:00.002+08:00

God tells me that He loves me, every single day
God tells me that He loves me, at home at school at play.
God tells me and this I know, everything God says it's so
God tells me that He loves me, every single day.

:D

it's a children's song but it is so true. the children songs are the ones that are most straightforward. it's gooooood.
but some nursery rhymes, well.. for instance "rock a bye baby"
google it. SPOOKY.
and there are many others. can't remember all now.

i am getting better at the production. getting things done and doing it more confidently. actually, i should thank God for giving me this opportunity. if not for my friend, i wouldn't have seen it in this perspective. my lecturer only chose a handful of people in my class to be stage and production managers. apparently i'm one of them. and those who were handpicked are those who are responsible and punctual and reliable and everything nice. i felt so good hearing that.
for the first time in my life, i feel monitress-y. haha!

FYI: i was never a monitress before. highest post i ever got was.. health education books leader.

HAHAHAHAHA.

ok peace out A town.

God loves me & u,
e-van

killing me softly.

2009-03-28T22:59:00.002+08:00

mum: i think e-van need to exercise already.
me: OUCH.
mum: need to swing your arms.
me: ouch painful.
mum: your arm needs some toning.
me: excruciating pain.

my body is so easily tired. now it's all aching- my shoulders and my legs. i am not proud about this but i am a terrible long distance runner.
one excuse i found for myself is: my legs are shorter so i run double the steps.... it's true! i take two steps when others take one. so unfair leh.

i'm still stressed in school still. can't wait for the production to be over. i hate being in charge of something i do not even know what i'm doing and what he others are talking about.
he says, "feel free to ask any questions when in doubt".
when asked, there is a obvious and apparent frown and a big SIGH of not relief, but irritance, "YES?".

i'm sure i'm not being oversensitive.

love,
e-van

low.

2009-03-25T23:07:00.002+08:00

life is so tired.
ups and downs.
i don't understand why i'm given a task i do not even know how to do. i hate this feeling. i don't want to do this. even if it's a small production.
arggghhhhh.
homeworks. thank you romeo for helping me out.
i wanna exercise.
i wanna do so many things.
i am not working.
so i'm not earning money.
but i'm sucking money out from my parents.
i can't save from my allowance either cos if i do it will mean i will have to compromise on lunch/dinner. AND I CANNOT DO THAT.
i hate this feeling.
i look forward to the bright light at the end of the tunnel.

love,
e-van

if i were a boy...

2009-03-11T00:32:00.003+08:00

i will have such fabulous fashion sense,
i will go shopping with my girl/guy friends,
I WILL NOT BE GAY,
i will ask for a lot of pretty girls numbers,
girls will definitely be automatically charmed by me,
i don't have to worry about thunder thighs,
i don't have to worry about high heels,
i will be sporty... i think,
i will have a super nice body!
i won't act cool,
i won't drool over girls,
FYI: girls will drool over me,
i will do the most sweetest thing for my girlfriend,
i WILL NOT WEAR TRAILS SLIPPERS,
i will not carry bags below $50,
(they are really usually uglier, sorry.)
i might use foundation,
i will take care of my face very very well.
IF I WERE A BOY.

Shasta.
he is such a smart dog. and very very naughty. he thinks his owners are stupid. but we are not!!! we are very very smart! what a naughty dog.

One should not hang out with people who don't belong to their "world".
That's why we have cliques.
So, a good piece of advice, stick to your clique.
Although i know forming cliques is not such a good thing, one should not go out with people who they cannot clique with.
Have fun in life.
Have fun with life.
Make the right friends and stick to them.

love,
e-van

INSANITY.

2009-03-09T12:16:00.002+08:00

Of a cluttered home,
of the smell of dog's urine and shit,
of clean laundry all over the place,
of dirty laundry all over the place,
of a big bag of clothes to sell,
of a big bag of bags to sell,
of so little clothes left to wear,
of so many clothes not meant for wearing,
of such hot weather,
of such cold and wet weather,
of the tears in the night,
of the joy in the day,
i'm still sane.

SHIFTY EYES.

2009-03-07T15:21:00.006+08:00

we played block catching yesterday. it was SOOO FUN!!!! and tiring of course- how can i forget that? but what a fun training! high intensity training i must say! i'd like to play it again! :) :)

it's been raining for days & i can never find the time to fly my kite.
God please stop the rain for me please!

i got my top braces. i specially requested for COLOURFUL as usual. but honestly, i am ashamed of it cos now i look like i have rotten teeth cos of the different colours!!! i look METALLIC-KY. haha.

i watched "he's just not that into you". what a cute movie! i like it! it's the kind of "awwwww..." movie. heh! :D

to one of my dearest friend:
no matter what we did that day, i hope you can see it in a different light and not think negatively. it came from good intentions and deep down, you know we still love you.

love,
e-van

I AM GETTING FIT. YAY.

2009-02-26T20:16:00.003+08:00

15 x 4 storeys, 30 crunches, and 100m run. ALL DONE BY ME.

tomorrow training! yay.

slumdog millionaire is a wonderful movie. it does deserve the oscars. (:

love,

e-van

TUNG LING BIBLE COLLEGE.

2009-02-23T21:46:00.002+08:00

So, i did not go to school tday. instead, i went to my sister's school.

it was a very good experience i must say! amazing worship. a great speaker/lecturer. learnt quite a lot of new things. things that i would have never thought of! felt that God spoke to me through quite a few points. and elin had friends who are very musically inclined.
it's nice to be with real and genuine people for a change!

oh & i know why some people cannot get along already.
because fakes can never click with real people.

love,
e-van

determination & happiness.

2009-02-22T22:35:00.003+08:00

this was what happened yesterday. me and eliz got locked out of our own house. none of us had the key. so we decided to be geniuses. (which we really turned out to be in the end, really) we used eliz's sport shoe and the shoelaces. so imagine this.. two shoelaces tied to a sport shoe. something like this: ------------------O

we tried very hard using this to bounce off the keys behind the door. half an hour passed. no luck. finally, the sound of jingling keys. i manage to bounce off the key from the hook!!! then the umbrela came in. enough talk. pictures.

the umbrella (which is now un-usable) to pull the key.

the key amongst the mess.

happiness and joy and and not forgetting, sweat.

the mess WE created just to get the key.

watched "The Importance of being Earnest". it's a wordplay kind of play. quite like it, but not my favourite. dunno why also.

and, i got too excited for kite flying so i bought myself a kite which stand to be almost as tall as me! :D

I CAN'T WAIT TO FLY MY KITE. I MIGHT JUST FLY IT ALONE TOMORROW. YAY TO THE YAYNESS WORLD!!

LOVE,

E-VAN

jack & joakim

2009-02-22T01:08:00.003+08:00

http://www.imeem.com/people/tpaXMWJ/music/S2_r-iDb/joakimjack/

please open it in another window or tab. i dunno how to do. so..
because of the laughters, these are words they were saying..

joakim: okey 1 ah 2 3 4!
jack: oh yeahhh
joakim: we go to lucky plaza
sunday after church
pray to jesus christ and mother mary
(something) rosary and then we go and eat
at ayam penyet at lucky plaza
buy the penoi card, $1.20
call siti and manila auntie
then we all go back to mum
uncle say "suck my dickie"
1 2 3..
jack: ok umm people today i want to tell the singaporeans that umm how i'm ha.. happy to be
here. people here are bery happy to talk to me and they always ask me where i go to
holiday or happy happy in singapore..
joakim: how long have you been here in singapore?
jack: 7 yearrs.. ah but i bery happy!
joakim: do you go to many different employers or do you stick to the usual..?
jack: umm.. because my mum die her husband is.. (pause) umm my mum she has problem in her brain and everytime i show her i go lucky plaza take picturrrre she jealous then she
never go out!
joakim: ok.. then what about what about the singporean weather compared to the Philippines
weather?
jack: in philippine very hot! and then sometimes u sweat so much u smell, but you come to
singapore everybody smell because you take the mrt in the morning so this smell i feel like
i'm back in Manila!!
joakim: how do you like the prospect of bangla workers attracted to the filipino maids? do you
like it?
jack: umm my god! jesus christ! do i like it?!! they make all my sisters go away to the
bangladesh! i not happy actually!
joakim: have they ever aid you for sex? to be honest?
jack: (pause) umm. you no talk like that you know. (i can't figure that out,sorry)
joakim: alright thank you very much and thank you for coming down to radio international of
singapore once again i'm joakim gomez signing out! good night!
jack: thank you!

HAHA. I HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT. LIKE I DID.

LOVE,
E-VAN.

WAYYYY HAYYYYY.

2009-02-19T22:39:00.003+08:00

THANK YOU SO MUCH KUEN.
I AM TOUCHED.
TO THE MAXXXX.

& I'M SO GONNA TAKE DRIVING LESSONS.
& prove to you all drivers out there's a good one coming to town.
all the civics, and lancers, step aside man.
i'm coming.
WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

coolest to the max,
e-van yeung!

it's goooooooooooood.

2009-02-17T22:35:00.004+08:00

Benjamin Button. what a beautiful and sad story.. i love this movie; made me think a lot. think of what? i don't know. think of love maybe? like how wonderful love is, and how sad it can be. when i watch shows like this, i cannot help but fantasize myself being the main characters. after watching this show i have this very heavy and yet light feeling. cannot describe it. but all in all, wonderful movie.

school was great today. polish dance- i'm doing well okay believe it or not! and i (commented by audience) am doing great in Galubiet. think i spelt wrongly. but anyway, yes. it's gooooooooood.

dean's class, presenters of the day: Daeia and Rashmi.

and last of all, what happened this morning?

class starts 9am. i usually wake up at 7am. but today i woke up at 8.45am.

the smses to Claire Devine- my speech&text lecturer, from England.

me: Sorry claire i overslept today! i feel really bad so sorry!

claire: Oh dear! Bad excuse to give to someone who hasn't slept for many many days!

Who is this by the way? Don't say xavier!

me: i'm e-van! haha not xavier!

claire: ok ah!!!!

me: sorry!

claire: silly billy!

Soi, honesty is the best policy. lesson learned. though claire did say she's disappointed in me. well i'll prove her wrong this thursday!

love to the max,

e-van

HELLO SMARTY PANTS.

2009-02-16T20:31:00.002+08:00

have you ever came across someone who say very stupid things? things that will make you go thinking "arrgh oh please just shut up". at my age, i cannot believe it when someone older says stupider things than me. and at times, people give unecessary information.

and you know just sometimes, a listening ear is better than a try-hard-to-give-advice.

I AM STRESSED.

i ran 5(i think) x 11 storeys on sunday. felt gooooooooooood. can't wait for friday.

love,
e-van

vday. friday 13th.

2009-02-13T23:35:00.008+08:00

i suddenly feel a very strong sense of saddation in my heart. i'm sad that i cannot spend my valentine's day with my friends. but. i'm sad. sad sad sad. :( :(

dear all, remember that Valentine's Day is not about having a date. or getting a present or whatever. so what if you see couples on the streets enjoying each other's company? congratulate them. but that doesn't mean you have to be sad. the right one's still out there- holding out. and he might be like you, waiting. in other words, be happy. (:

I love you Jack Bitch. to the max.
I love you Koslaphirom. to the max.
I love you Daeia. to the max.
I love you Kian Kuen.
I love you Shumin.
I love you Mun Loon.

I love all of you. Happy Valentine's. (:

Oh & please. There's nothing to be superstitious about on Friday the 13th.

Congratulations to Gomez (i say Gomez ar. not something else) on passing your BTT. On the Friday the 13th. if that helps. haha.

with lots of love,
e-van

2009-02-12T22:47:00.004+08:00

there was this guy today. it was after i watched the opera "wandering scholar" (which was very good by the way. well done michael and thomas!! [applause]). anyway i was already noticing he was giving me the weird eyes ever since i stepped out of the recital studio. then i had to walk with celine to city hall mrt from esplanade. he was at least ten metres away from me. then when i got to city hall, i looked around and then sighed a relief that he was not anywhere to be seen. so i changed to dhoby ghaut.

it was tthe kind of train you had to run after. so when i finally got in, the train was almost sardined with humans. and guess who came in when the doors were closing?yes, him. my heart jumped a beat. a few beats, to be exact. but this time, he was carrying a take-away and a plastic cup of drink. and he kept on looking at me by the side of his eyes. and finally, his phone rang.

he picked it up.
he looked at me.
and then he open the lid of the cup.
he dropped it on my feet.
was it just me, or was that done on purpose?
the people around were surprised and some, angry.
it not only got onto my feet, but a few others as well.
and then i felt a stinging pain on the balls of my feet.
so pain i could cry. but i held back. obviously the liquid was not water nor Sprite.

i decided to move away and read my book.
all the way from dhoby ghaut to sengkang.
he was there. and when i got off, he got off too. i pretended as if i did not even notice him. i walked home. and he was at least five metres nearer to me this time. i walked through the dark and dim blocks of flats to get to my house. i waited for the lift. and he waited too.

it was then i suddenly shouted at him "hey mister! i have noticed you've been following me from dhoby ghaut. what's your deal? what did you pour on my feet? what is your motive?!" and then i asked "do you have a lollipop?" surprisingly he did have one. and he offered me coke-flavoured lollipop. it was really nice and i really enjoyed it. i thanked him and gave him back the stick of the lollipop. and then he said "bye miss". and we lived happily ever after. separately.

The End.

so. obviously it was all made up. truth is, a very annoying ah beng spilled water on my feet in the train and didn't say sorry. haha! do tell me if i make a WONDERFUL author. oh & i do have a sketch of that guy. recognise his face so we can nab him together. he's not as cute as i drew him to be by the way.

gladness fills my heart.

2009-02-09T20:30:00.002+08:00

i am happy. (:

a little sad. ):

but nevertheless, more happy. (: the cup is half full now, not half empty anymore.

to you: i'm sorry you are hurting. i know it's a painful process but let's walk out of this as a man and woman ready to start life anew.

to you: i suddenly realized i got a "RARE" compliment from the most "stingy complimenting person". thank you! (:

haha.

happy,
e-van

see this.

2009-02-02T21:57:00.002+08:00

"Self-praise is the lowest form of recommendation" - learnt this from Michael Corbidge. but i think in some people's case, this will sound more correct.

"Self-praise is the lowest form of introduction".

Please agree with me. i know you do. and there ARE such people around.

PEACE.
e-van

sadness fills my heart.

2009-01-27T22:24:00.002+08:00

apparently the nice harem pants i bought in queensway was not of good material. i'm so sad. but i still love it and still have hopes in it. :) i'll still wear you harem pants! i still love you!

weather was hot today. my relatives had a lot to say.. as usual. "why you wearing panty on your head ar?", "why you wear black on chinese new year ar?", "why you always wear weird weird one ar?".. stuff like that. but, i like the way i am so nobody's gonna stop me. so, if you wanna be my future HUSBAND, ACCEPT ME. or just constantly praise my fabulous dress sense. i'll be elated and probably have more reason to love you. HAHA.

love love love,
e-van

somebody kill me before i kill her. and her.

2009-01-27T00:13:00.003+08:00

i'm finally done with tidying up my room and rearranging the furnitures in it. i even got a new reading lamp! (: (:

today went to bai nian. first at my uncles'. where all the children (i dunno how it only started this year, unexpectedly and surprisingly natural) from the older to the younger ones, we started...

wait. everyone. someone just farted in my room. i won't disclose the person's name but i'll give a hint. the fourth daughter of the Yeung family. it stinks to the high heavens. like rotten egg. OMG. don't tell her i told you this.

anyway, we started saying words of blessings while the adults sit on the special chair. everyone had their very own solo performances. it was quite funny because my cousin Henry couldn't think of anything so before his turn he quickly went to google for chinese words of blessings.. so funny. but he couldn't find any by the way.

then at night i got scolded by my drunk auntie for being rude for smsing during the dinnertable. first, i was only eating with the latecomers- evon and simon. we were all busy eating and hardly talking. then my drunk auntie suddenly came and scold me that. and my other auntie whispered in my ear "she's definitely drunk. don't care her". i felt better.

happy chinese new year.

okay bye.

love,
e-van

half empty or half full?

2009-01-24T23:39:00.003+08:00

Did something happen? something you wanna tell me? if it is really important and you really need to tell someone, you can email me. but i cannot guarantee i will reply. i'm sorry but i am really trying to stick to the rules and the promises given and made to our friend. please try to understand that it's not that i'm blameless. i'm almost fully to blame. but this one month is for us to take a breather. or maybe more for me.

today we had reunion dinner at uncle fai's house. we slowly changed those chen yu to "hallelujah", "amen", "God bless us" and all. it was really quite fun.

played card games after that. the game of bluff. very very fun. then all of a sudden, there was this beetle that landed on eliz's thighs and everyone started screaming and shouting. overwhelmed by shock, eliz tried her best to flick the beetle away from herself. which then landed on evon. she ran screaming around the room, everyone avoiding her except her heroic boyfriend Mr. Cheo who removed the beetle with his bare hands from her shirt. eeeeek.

i am so ready for chinese new year. & please don't be so sad anymore. please be happy. :)

love,
e-van

XING NIAN KUAI LE.

2009-01-23T23:30:00.002+08:00

hello, i am quite fine. i do not like what i'm going through now emotionally and i hope u do not rub it in. please do not ask me any question regarding my current feeling or whatsoever because u are only pressurizing me even more. please understand and stop being scrupulous and manipulative. i do not want to be manipulated by u time and again.

school has been great. the friends are great, the classmates are wonderful. today, during emcee class (it's more like a voice-over class where we learn to be like DJs in the radio or voices of characters/cartoons). we came up with an idea. horror. & i'm pretty excited about it. it will be in the form of radio. i will sound like samuel (my cute same-height-as-me 13 year old little brother).

i wanna buy something red to wear for chinese new year. anyway, happy new year to you.

for this year's chinese new year, i wish to get to this "certain amount" so i can pay for my next hair perming session. this time, my hairstylist (keith lee from takashimaya Reds- he's great, i love him) is gonna try something new. very very very tight curls. kinda excited about it. & i don't know how i'm gonna turn out like. but, i trust keith. when has he ever failed me? GO KEITH!

happy chinese new year with love,
e-van

2009-01-22T20:07:00.002+08:00

hello. it's MANUAL not manuel. and the word "sibei sian" no need to use right? can use something like "bored with life" or something right? what's with hokkien man. anyway, school has been stressful. it's not only school, but what i'm going through just made me break out in tears during singing class. u're so mean. u used to praise me and just because i was late for your class, and knowing i will be marked absent, i still went. but you kept on rubbing in that i was late. "e-van, can you tell us what we just did? oh sorry i forgot, you were late!", "class started a long time ago, just that you were not here".. those words of sarcasm, was it really necessary?

folkdance. we danced like, according to my russian teacher, "pinguins". hahaha. i got the steps right mind you. stop thinking i was wrong. miss elena said i was doing all the right steps.

changed my braces to blue today. i like. doing top braces in March. very excited.

&, i do miss you too. :)

love,
e-van

DILEMMATIC PHASE OF MY LIFE

2009-01-20T23:44:00.003+08:00

i don't know if this is one of that other phase of life i'm having. we call it, the "j***ick phase". but this is no ordinary phase, or maybe it is. i don't know!! it's me being emotionally unsure and unstable again. why ah why..... perhaps i've yet to grow up? perhaps i haven't really met the one? perhaps perhaps perhaps (playing the perhaps song faintly in the background). anyway, a friend asked me "what is love actually? this one love that one also love". haha. that's the most singaporean answer i've came across so far. but well, that's exactly what i'm going through now. so stupid!!!! stupittt!!! shiiit!!! okay bye.

still in a deep dilemma,
E-VAN

oh and my speech teacher labelled me as "sergeant major" today. yes, it's a compliment. yay.

SMELL, BE GONE!

2008-12-09T11:17:00.002+08:00

hi everyone, believe it or not, i'm blogging. :D i'm not feeling too well since yesterday. been visiting the toilet more than i want to and feeling EXTREME pains in my stomach. just today, before it even reached 6am, whilst sleeping, i went to the toilet three time. THREE TIMES! OMG. but, a little advertisement for this invention which is yet another one of the best inventions in the world today. the"One Drop Smell Gone". you can find them in Home-Fix (that's where i found my miracle) :D for just approximately 5 bucks or 10 bucks. believe me, it's a worthy investment. you just drop a few drops into the toilet bowl for ten seconds and you use the toilet. you'll see the miracle. but for rare cases, like *ahem* someone's dad, it didn't work even if he did drop MANY drops before, during and after his whole visit to the toilet. scientists still haven't found the reason behind it and the cure for him (haha). trust me, you'll find yourself saying "Thank you Jesus!". okay bye.

BUY "ONE DROP SMELL GONE",
E-VAN

proud fan of myself

2008-09-01T01:42:00.002+08:00

words cannot describe how i feel about myself now. i just ran 4.8km! it's been AGES (and i mean ages) since i ran. i feel lighter already.i feel healthier already. it's been so long since i last seen this pair of rosy cheeks of mine. HAHA. i'm so proud of myself finally doing what i said i long wanted to do. remember this.it's 4.8km at one go. non-stop. i couldn't even run 2.4km last time.

ok, bottomline is, i feel so good about myself now. i love the pespiration and i'm gonna continue with it till i'm satisfied with myself. i love me. yay me!

E-VAN

FRIENDS

2008-08-27T23:07:00.004+08:00

we have family, we have friends. as for family, there's generally no "bearing grudge" towards each other. but it's a different story when it comes to friends. me and my sister could be quarelling one minute, and the next second we're laughing together.

but as for friends, for me, it's much more difficult. it's easy to have fun, good & happy times together. but when it comes to the little differences between each other, if not ironed out, could result in an ugly situation between both. one has to step up and do the dirty job by voicing out the unhappiness. then, if the other is mature enough, able to take those constructive criticisms, then will it work out all fine again. so, to "whom it may concern", i'm sorry for making you cry for me. for us. i cherish you as a friend, as a sister, who i never ever will wanna lose in this lifetime.

i'm glad everything is going smoothly (smoother than last time, like baby backside, haha) now. i feel that there's no more secret whatsoever. and i'm happy you stood up and said your piece. i love you and i always will. muuuuuuaaaaaaacccckk!

tothelosers

2008-08-25T23:53:00.003+08:00

hypocritical,plastic smiles,filled with stupidity,put on an arrogant front when there is nothing to be arrogant about (eg. talent-less),again stupidity,childish,boring but try to be entertaining,try to be humourous with stupid non-witty uncreative jokes & bad english (you've are late).i think all these are enough to define a loser,a loser.

losers will forever stay in their loser worlds with their loser jokes.

love,e-van

"i know you think i dont know"

2008-08-24T01:50:00.002+08:00

If only we had a machine to scan our friends/people.

im happy.

so random.

VIC

someonesomewhereknows

2008-08-23T01:11:00.001+08:00

i am gonna be smarter next year.

VIC

think about it

2008-08-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

"do not tell others they have a speck in their eye when you have a log in yours".

okie doke

2008-08-21T10:46:00.001+08:00

i swear,im gonna update more..... (:

so far

2008-08-11T22:49:00.002+08:00

"Its often said that no matter the truth, people see what they want to see. Some people might take a step back and find out they were looking at the same big picture all along. Some people might see that their lies have almost caught up to them. Some people may see what was there all along. And then there are those other people, the ones who run as far away as they can so they don't have to look at themselves."

vic

2008-08-09T09:20:00.003+08:00

I was sure that you will be the one i spend my life with,

I was sure that you will make the best husband in the world,

I was sure that life will be complete with you around,

I was sure that you will be the supporting pillar in my life,

I was sure that I was prior to most things,

I was sure of all these,

but now I'm not.

Tears are not enough to describe how I feel.

love,
e-van

2008-07-31T00:22:00.003+08:00

oozing with love,

e-van

kukubirdy head

2008-07-28T22:46:00.001+08:00

kukujiao.
contradicting.
still act not.
kukujiao.

haha.

vic.

2008-07-28T15:19:00.000+08:00

i'm the only one who goes to school at4.30pm on tuesday. yayness to the yayness world.

jj have ANOTHER new nickname!!! (applaud applaud)
flick and tap the ikea products boy!!!

new word of the day, by our one and only daeia.
COMMERATE!
eg."Hey guys, we should commerate this eventful day."

postura!

2008-07-25T20:35:00.002+08:00

Someone once said if only she could turn back time.

Another someone said if only things were like before.

Someone else said he wished he could take what he did back

And someone else said if only he did it.

Then there was another someone who said she wishes things would stay like how they were and never change.

People are always regretting.

I just hope I don't this time.

_______________________________________

vic

when will the world stop

2008-07-21T23:23:00.004+08:00

Special thanks to

E-van
Mishuelle
Eunice Joy
Beatrice
Carina
Shi Hui
Yong Kit
Kar Yong

Moses
Xavier
Joel
Xi Yao
Mansur
Greg
Dickson
Royston

and special thanks with a kiss and a hug to,

JOYCE
Daniel
Adam
Kelvin
Garrett
Daeia
JJ
Shermin
May
Samuel

and everything else that I can give that I know will never be enough to,

God
Daddy
Mommy

and lastly,
KELSON ONG.

i love you all. (:

memory playing like a film without sound

2008-07-16T00:59:00.022+08:00

Grade A Constructions.

haha.funny funny funnyyy.

I have been eating alot. Havent been losing any weight or any of that sort at all. I need to execute my diet plan soon. I'm gonna climb stairs from now on. Oh, and I also made strawberry cheesecake with E-van today. Its supposed to set for 12 hours. So, its supposed to be done in another 45 mins or so. :D

Another one last week until school starts. Bummer. (E-van! We need our notebook to record classes we're gonna skip! and, I can't wait to see big ASS!) I can't wait for school to start, but I'm pretty sure it won't be the same without _.

Reunion with sistercanphy tmr! (:

Goodbye world.

VIC

P.s

K, lets start proper work tmr. No more slowness and nonsense. No more wearing heels at 3am at my house, no jokes and no more poking of any of my fishes....

suffocating

2008-07-13T01:08:00.001+08:00

Have you got no common sense, no basic courtesy or no brains?

Vic-

sometimes you think.

2008-07-10T23:45:00.002+08:00

And so, I have braces on now!

It was sucha messy day. With saliva and blood all over. All over my hair, all over my clothes and all over the mrt.haha. And probably all over a lady's slipper. teeheehee. Blue and green but. you can hardly tell the difference. So anyhoos, met K and his honeybunny today. They couldnt stop laughing at my very very numb mouth. I couldnt feel how wide apart my lip was, how much saliva there was in my mouth. Everything was numbbbb.

Then was the long awaited bonding session with E-VAN. It was good. I missed her so much.

Haji tmr, fittings tmr.

And,
Thank you Garrett, for everything. The front's a beauty. Your jokes are love. haha.

VIC-

yayyyy

2008-07-09T23:22:00.004+08:00

who's a piece of lard? who needs to drown in shit?
anyways, if we're talking about the same person, xian, i heard someone's ass got BIGGER. like TEN TIMES BIGGER. i can't wait to see!!!haha.

:)

i got a new phone.
i got a new belt.
i got a new pair of jeans.
i got a new pair of shoes.
i got a new pair of sunglasses.
i got a new skirt.
i got a new dress.
i got a new bag.
i got 2 new glads- bought the 1st at $29.90 and, (daeia's favourite), got the 2nd at $3.90.

& i still got my one and only true love, _ _ _k k_ _ _ _ _ e. fats rule the world.

i'm gonna get more new stuff.
YAY ME!!!

love to the maximum level,
e-van. :D

tonight you're only here to know :)

2008-07-03T04:00:00.007+08:00

i hope you die soon,

you M*****F*****G BLOODYpiece of lard.

oh no,i think i'll take the high road,

i hope you drown in your own shit.

F-U-C-K-Y-O-U

Vic-

(:

2008-07-02T00:52:00.004+08:00

you make ME happy,
ejslpwd.

(:

i hope i got ur name right :D

-VIC

dos and don'ts

2008-07-01T00:37:00.003+08:00

i rant about my relationships. give your comments. DO NOT ASSUME AND ACT SMART.

that is what i hate.
oh & by the way, i also hate the hard approach people use to wake me up. call my name softly. tap me. DON'T HIT ME. DON'T YELL MY NAME INTO MY EAR. plain stupidity.

wanna know what makes me sad?
when relatives (especially siblings) relationship turn sour to the extent of putting one another in jail OR refuses to go to that relative's funeral.

Love's a game

2008-06-23T10:56:00.004+08:00

Right now the sun is trying to kill the moon
Right now I wish I could follow you
into the shores, of freedom,
with no one else.

Run away tonight-

-Vic

the happiest day of my life

2008-06-20T18:39:00.002+08:00

i vomited like four times today. and it's from a migrane i had since like morning. i just sneezed. and the back of my head hurts so much. according to my mom it's because i permed my hair yesterday cos she had migrane after she did hers too. guess it's the chemicals reacting or something. so i didn't go work today. dang 56 bucks gone!

for people who suffers a migrane lik me sometimes, a few tips:
1) draw your curtains. (not open but close your curtains because the bright sun makes your eyes hurt which eventually will just make your migrane worse)
2) shut the windows! (same philosophy as the first)
3) drink honey water or something warm maybe cos it contains sugar ( i don't know about this one)

ok, many thanks to evon jie jie today. she helped to draw my curtains and provided me with honey water and biscuits and panadol.

to someone in particular

2008-06-19T23:44:00.003+08:00

i don't need you anymore. nor do i want you anymore. i have had enough of threats from you, or simply just words that is not pleasing to my ears. you do all this just to hurt me and well, i think you are starting to disgust me to a point that i myself am disgusted with myself. i don't want you. i don't need you.
I DON'T NEED EDUCATIONAL BOOKS.
AND I KNOW WHAT A BASTARD MEANS.

i changed something about myself without your consent. so, hate me if you must, but it doesn't concern you anymore. in other words, mind your own business.
today is our date of expiry.
goodbye to this, goodbye to you.

love,
e-van

"To no one in particular"

2008-06-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

"If one day you noticed we haven't talked in awhile its not because I don't care anymore.

Its because you pushed me away."

-Vic

Test Your Awareness: Do The Test

2008-06-10T00:29:00.003+08:00

vic-

i likeeee

2008-06-10T00:21:00.001+08:00

vic-

cling wrap

2008-06-07T14:21:00.004+08:00

i found out what a cling wrap is.

ok.random.

e-van,
hi.i think you mean BLONDE.haha.you lousy BLOND.
hahaha.look at who the blonde is.

:D

ive been busy.but im happy with my life.and happy with whos in it and whos not.
hiphiphurray.

vic-

I'm Turning Xian (Blond)

2008-06-05T16:38:00.002+08:00

i had to hand in my O level or N level cert in order to get paid on 27 JUNE. but i remembered that i haven't collected my cert since 2006. that was a long long time ago. so i called up my school to look for my cert. they say they'd get back to me asap. but no, they took more than 2 days so i called up MOE (ministry of education) they said i should email my school it'd be faster.

and so i did.

i then called my father to tell him what have happened. he told me "Darling, i brought you to school to collect your cert". i thought he was wrong so that means i had to search further and deeper. so guess what happened? MY CERT IS WITH MY DAD IN HIS OFFICE. i can't believe that i don't even remember collecting my cert. OMG.

ok. my diet plan should officially start tmr. this week's food i consumed: ben & jerry's waffle ice cream (BENS AND JERRYS according to daeia), yesterday ate so much durian (that's another story), today morning ate fried luncheon meat, and fried roti prata. tonight having crab with family. xian you coming or not?

okay. durian story. i got cheated by the durian uncle. 2.5kgfor $45. yes i'm easily conned. i can't believe there are such people out there really out to cheat my money and feelings.

love,
e-van

sit with me

2008-06-04T13:17:00.004+08:00

things and places that brings my heart into another somewhere..

and so much more.

vic-

2008-06-03T09:14:00.001+08:00

I've been dying inside

little by little

Nowhere to go

I'm goin outta my mind

vic-

zee mozzer

2008-05-20T11:32:00.001+08:00

i cannot find andrew's playmaking paper! and i havent handed up the assigment which was dued on the 17 of may. shite.

bye!

VICKY

2008-05-16T18:06:00.001+08:00